I waste hours
Of passing time
Wonder if your heart
Feels the same as mine
The love loss
The love felt
The pain delivered
From fates hand dealt

I fade away further
Into the future of emptiness
I live alive
In the blinding darkness
Knowing little
Except what was true
That nothing is purer
Than the love I felt for you

I am not alone
I know you feel me too
After all I have done
To make sure I scar you

Hearts and minds,
find the time
That in the end there was no possible reason
for anything



silent cries unheard
no one seems to understand.

im
sinking
into
depression ,
with no one to hold my hand

they slitthered in through your fingers
fate , your life in their hands
untold storms brewing
of no emotions!
when all is gone
take away the life i had
there is a place for every soul
a haven to lose control

flowers are falling
invisible lies
your stolen thoughts
begone!
silent cries
when all u sought is gone

the flame burns deep
the nature of death a mystery
your life in white is draining into this black hole
the million stars your witnesses
as life takes its leave

Its a struggle
Each failure deepening the wound
And then it all crashes down on me
Will you stay or try to leave?

Im thinking to stride past the door
But fear pins me down
Sinking in despair
I pray that it passes soon

A cruel misfortune
Forbidding is to see
When two worlds collide
Its a sad state of mind

And my hearts beats for the very last time
Still the search for peace i cannot find

Sitting on the golden jewelled sands
I watch the waves calmly breaking against the shore
Watch the birds fly in circles above the sea
I hear the melody of the sea breeze
That gently caresses my face
Its late at night and is starting to rain
But here i would remain
With the cold raindrops falling on my skin
This place fills my soul with some kind of strange energy
And I can´t explain exactly what it feels like
The shadows moves along the beach
Forming a myriad of shapes
The darkness doesn't scare me at all,
Here I feel comfortable and safe
It seems that the pain I was feeling before has gone away
I´m all alone here but somehow I dont feel lonely
Here, sitting on the golden sands ,
I will remain
Patiently contemplating the sea.

I gave you all I had
My love, my heart, my soul
Disguised as an angel
My life you stole

Everything I could have been
All that I was suppose to be
Has faded away like a dream
Now I am drowning in this reality

Truths that haunt
Fears that keep me awake
Pain that continuously stabs my heart
Hopes that I now forsake

Everyday the same
Another day without you
The one thing in my life
I believed to be true

Emptiness obsesses inside
Only darkness and misery
Waiting to die
To escape this haunting fantasy.

Alone in the far corner ,
Of a world of dreams ,
I listen to the whispers ,
Of sweet memories with wings ,
Fluttering with a soothing rhythm ,
Sliding through this cool breeze ,
We kiss , moving across everlasting time ,
Whilst somewhere far below ,
The world silently passes by,
But the day has come too soon ,
And its time for us to part,
Crying in each others arms ,
We lament over how the world has treated us ,
There are just too many wounds,
That may never heal,
But before its too late ,
I just want you to know whats real,
I love you.



i dunno what to feel anymore :sigh:

In the wake of death
I find u hiding
Behind darkness’s door
On the other side
Where it is dark and cold

Gazing into oblivion
The horizon a crimson red
Stench of withering roses
Spirals up to the night sky
Falling away into pandemonium
Driving these nightmares to life
Breathing truth into these lies

Im staring blindly
Unto a world not my own
Trying to see through this blank wall
So anxious to know finally
What has become of me

I am here,
but I am fading,
everything hurts,
and I am shaking.

Stomach in knots,
head is pounding,
dark creeps in,
slowly surrounding.

I am alive,
but I crave death,
I want to end it,
razor to flesh.

I am pathetic,
never ending,
whining bitching,
no longer pretending.

I trace my scars ,
to find some relief,
to remind myself,
of my past grief.






=/ depression is setting in

Encased in silver tears
Falling , no one hears
Lost for all these years
Entombed in hidden fears

Classic how it turns
And your the one who burns
I guess no one learns
What they reap is not what they've earned

Foes are deep within
Buried inside of your very skin
Such a hollow evil grin
Can't you see the damned are sinned?

The divine lost their shell
Spun discretly , can't you tell?

Lonely and broken
I lie alone in this endless hall
Softly unspoken
Can't walk
Not even crawl
My legs are numb to the bone
From the lies you have told me
All I want to do is cry...
Just lay down and die...
Somebody give me back my dreams
Somebody save me
Somebody give me back my wings
And I will promise you anything
Anything....

Gloomy skies
The day that mankind cried
Sweet laughter swept into the night
Staring at the razor
Oh how easy the sacrifice
To have you dying by my side

I force the blade upon my wrist
As my life's essence slowly drain away
The Death knells silence the screams
As i begin my journey to the jewelled sands
Leaving my lifeless body to the carrion

Angel ,
Looking down from above the clouds,
you see the hurt and suffering,
trying your hardest to bring hope,
bringing ease to those in pain.

Taking their hurt upon yourself,
caring not for your own being,
wanting for nothing in return,
yet something is drained through all of this.

Your own body's battered
telling the tale of healing the world.
Self-inflicted harm removes their pain,
your body a tale of too much given.

What you don't see is inside you,
your golden faith blooming within.

let me play in the crimson fluids of your open wounds
let me feast upon the fluid of your open heart
I need to feel the ocean of sorrow
rising from the depths of my stolen thoughts
your dreams haunt me now
to fill my pain and anger
help me from the tainted world of life
where i am bound
let me reopen the rendered scars
let me rip the flesh and bone to the marrow
let me watch your corpse rot
I need to hear your screams
so loud
So I can feel the rush of danger....


do you feel?

In empty words the truth was spoken
Caught in a web of lies
The silence was torn
Believing all that we saw
Deep down within our mind
the seeds of chaos were planted
It's the blind leading the blind
Twisting our minds
We won't be the ones that are left behind
Through all these lies I see our demise
Waiting in time til we die
Break free from your lives as minions
Experience the thrill
Until the day you're liberated
You're a slave to this curse
That has been dictated
To lead or to be lead
Which path do you tread
The will to rise above must be alive
Choices that we make
Promises we break
We stare in awe
As we await the nightfall



We cant see
We cant hear
Trying to survive in this life of misery
Who are we the blame
As we watch our lives pass down the drain

All that I have,
I would give away.
To have ur love for a single day.

This pain u feel ,
I would steal it from u
And take it instead

But you don’t deserve this
And neither do I
I don’t wanna live thru this
Don’t wanna die

There’s light in your eyes
And hope in your heart
And when u forget
Ur new life will start

=)

Playing the strings
Dancing in the wind
Freely
The boy still sings
These childhood memories are fading
Like a rusting nail
I push back the break of dawn
Before the horizon’s rise
Try to grasp these last shimmering strands of hope
Hanging in my face
In the midst of darkness
The faint light of hope still remains
Please chase away these demons
So that I can live in this fairy tale
A little longer

Against the wind
forgotten dreams,
Distant desires,
for an eternity.
Im lost in here,
burning in the fire.
Thirteen cries ,
Thirteen lies.
I dive into the abyss of disillusion.

Reborn under the fading sun ,
Im deep in depression.
Forced hunger,
This ocean of tears,
gloom and fear,
the emptyness stands,
I am one of the damned.

The pact is binding,
Your last words mean nothing.
Dying face frozen in a scream,
Another life,
Another time,
In my crimson dream