something lies amiss

an empty void in the distance

where have my dreams gone

will you catch them for me ?

having done all i could
sitting alone
leaning on the edge
hoping for a change
i wait and ponder
questioning life and fate
youth and innocence
trying to find a balance
where nothingness
bears meaning
and everything's special

lone candle wakes
a heart set in place
pressures mount
to break through rock
rise up the seed
for a new season of love
begins again

Eyes that sparkle

Shimmering crystal

Traces of gold and silver

Hint of innocence

Encompassing beauty

Radiating like the sun

Deep within
Echoes imagination
Secret tongue
An open mind read
Inner self search
Futile attempts
Cloaked emotions
Dull weary hands
Exit reality
Eyes forced shut
Cold shivers
Await the morn
Everything's perfect

My soul is stretched beyond its place
Feel the pressure because I can't take it
Take my wings or leave them here
Chain me to the ground, keep me near
Swimming in black whispers of rhyme
Can I borrow your will, I've misplaced mine
My heart, it screams, my eyes, blind
Absent is the light, nowhere to be found

Submerged, suspended
Neither dead nor alive
I feel the tingle up my spine
Inject unto me some life, hold my hand
Off the edge I trip, but still I stand
A warm embrace, my cold mind melts
The strength from you, everlastingly felt
Ink trickling out like a lingering note

Bring me back to the cradle
Take back my life you once held

the sands of time run out
as your thoughts drift away
the sunset a burning red
when the hour of light fades
comes the darkness
finally here to take you away
to a place of beauty
where your journey ends



youre with me wherever i go

Never more
forever be
and forever
is as ever
as is a dream
within a dream
unfolds the beauty
of our times

Darting in and out
were my emotions
As I caught
glistening and shimmering
reflections of you
Rays of the sun
Shining and twinkling
Sparkling and brilliant
In the midst
Of your exuberant growth

Lay down my love,
all will be well.
I'll take you away,
on clouds we will sail




<3 bunny bunny

open the door to summer
let the snow melt away
draw in the sun's warmth
leap away from the darkness
across the tainted lands
into the healing rain



sleep my child ... ...

Dreams of firelight
Dancing
Dreams of
Melting into you

When all is cold and
And all is dark
You are right beside me
When you are not here at all

These shallow visions
Dispersed with light
A deep longing
For the approaching dawn
When things are clear
You are standing right here
With eyes wide shut
Just one more wish
An embrace
A kiss
A look
A smile
Every moment with you
Is one step closer
To where I want to be
Where there is no end
To my dreamy love and
Beautiful thoughts of you ...





Amongst my scattered thoughts,
I think of you.

I wanted kisses
but you wouldn't part the petals.
I wanted touch
but you wouldn't share the sun.

I wanted depth
but you wouldn't sail my ocean.
I wanted devotion
but you wouldn't share the burden.

I wanted real
but you wouldn't distance the delusions.
I wanted right
but you wouldn't reason the lie.

I wanted love
but you wouldn't light my fire
I wanted you
but you wouldn't cross the border

Im exhausted with emotions
drifting away into the emptiness
the coldness numbs me to the bone
Its getting darker
and this strange sense of serenity
washes me over




You were my white lily
oh sweet flower ,
in the garden of weeds
that I built around the
hollow of my soul.
And with the light
of your blossom,
you enfolded me
in your velvet love.

The thought of lips
that ignite warmth
and deeply effective passion
delights,forgets,
loves more and is reborn
As many times
as my mind wanders
the greatest breath taken
is the one soon exhaled..
Now impaled in
the thralls of passion
this wisp of romance
a chance taken
a glass tipped
wine sipped on lips
that drip.

Down upon my knees
I pray for release.
For many years
Ive dwelled in the darkness
The reason for this hell
I cannot see,
How one can be denied
when all have sinned.
The jaws of sorrow
will not let me go,
When paranoia's voice
I cannot tame.
Neither noise nor silence
help to supress my pain.
The voices play on ,
either one the same.
What in this life
does love gain ?
For taking beauty's face
to grow such shame?
To rediscover life once more
and give,
Though broken is my spirit,
I must live.

Fall for a heart without a sin
For a soul without emotion
My memories are lost within
A sea full of devotion
Take care of my lost leaves
Of the things I held so close
Before my life has ended here
Buried under a black rose
I touch your wings which seem so close
But fall to the ground from which you rose
I see my fall in your clear eyes
As my hand touches yours -
it dies.



in my own ashes
i am standing without a soul

There's so much to say
Yet nothing at all
I'll never forget
That look in your eyes
You wanted to hurt me
Were supposed to protect me
I was so young, innocent
You stole that from me
Before I could throw it away
I never got the chance
To know a man as a father
You were clouded with perversion
Sickened and weak, weakening me
Beating me unmercilessly gave you power
You could never have in life
I'll never forget
That look in your eyes
I wonder now if you hated me
Did you hate me from birth?
Did you ever catch a glimpse
Of the madness in your eyes
Did you even know
How much of me you killed
When you brought me to life?
Now I know all about you
You're incapable of love
You are the coldness inside of me
The part of me that doesn't care
The part of me that I must fear
Memories fade slowly,
but my scars remain
To remind me that I survived the pain.



Inspired by Green Carnation - The Boy In The Attic

A blessing from below,
born a sweet child like foretold
Could it the boy that
I used to be
Oh, father please forgive me
if I`ve done you wrong
For how long
will you let me suffer all alone
Father! Please!
A father`s touch,
a beating one too much
Hiding in the closet
waiting for him to sleep
What others saw of me,
was what dad wanted them to see
Father! Please!
I want to taste the free,
like nothing ever used to be
I want to taste what is mine
Am I evil, could it be,
that I am the one they fear
Look at me,
I am the sweetest one you`ll ever see
I made it through the old
into a brand new life
No more hiding in the closet,
waiting for him to sleep
Into the shadows of old
Strange memories of time gone
I was never rightfully yours
Storys like mine,
that were never told
Out of the window feeling free
That is how I killed me...

Sitting , painting,
Constant meditating.
My mind's a canvas,
Of surrealistic thoughts .
Colors weave ,
Upon stained glass.
Angels reflect ,
The mood of soul.
Their light fills ,
My minds darkest hole.
My glass house,
Is about to shatter.
Will the angels ,
Bleed for me,
Yet again?

Daylight left without a word
and i felt twilights kiss ,
gently upon my lips.
Spectrums of dying shades
danced around me ,
beckoning me to follow.


Come light up my dreams
with your jewelled smile.
Linger here a while longer ,
be with me in my sleep.
Return me the sun ,
for it is growing dark ,
and im bleeding dry
from this open wound.


The flowers withered away,
a grand beauty turned to dust,
under the wings of death .
Winter raged on like legion ,
all around the grey of despair.
All my fallen memories bleak ,
the untold shadows have awakened.


Come light up my dream ,
let your moonlight shine upon me.
Save me from the fruit of darkness,
fed with sorrows dew.
Return me from the ashes ,
be with me one last time ,
before im gone for good .




D:

Alone in the far corner,
of a world of dreams.
I listened to the whispers ,
of sweet memories with wings.
Fluttering with a soothing rhythm,
sliding through this cool breeze ,
i soar above it all .
Shadows of the past trailing behind ,
i journey across everlasting time.
Whilst somewhere far below ,
the world passes by silently.
But the end has come too soon ,
and im left alone in tears.
There are too many wounds,
that may never heal.
But before its too late ,
i must show u what is real ,
that i love you. ~~

Have you wondered why the wind
Blows cold
Did you ever realise that your face
Is painted on my soul
Out of your wings of success
The long fall from frace
Right between the eyes you bleed
Your heart you sold for stones